Broken and lost, surrounded by an neverending sea of darkness. I can feel myself drowning and fading, disappearing forever. I feel dead inside.
I have few words left right now, but I found this poem online which sort of says some of it.
When your loved ones look at you and all you feel is shame?
When your tired of living and playing this game?
when you know your life is meaningless and your the only one to blame?
What do you call it when the hurt is in your soul?
When you smile and laugh but you know its all a show?
When you feel like you’ve hit your all time low?
When nothing makes you happy and the darkness around you grows?
What do you call it when you feel so alone?
When your in your house but it don’t feel like home?
When you look back in your life and every choice you made now seems wrong?
When the wait to die seems too long.