To die

Trigger warning….suicide

Dealing with all my shit is hard enough. Im fighting like crazy to get help, to talk about all the fucking shit that makes up my life. But to have my daughter throw it in my face just…its undone me. My husband has made me feel so unimportant and invisible. I tell him something and he just doesn’t listen. I feel like the people im holding on for really dont give a flying fuck about me. And i just cant do this any more. Im in so much pain. All my life ive just wanted to feel loved and wanted by those whom i love. But im just not good enough. There is something fundamentally wrong with me and at some point im turned against. I no longer matter. Im a second thought. I just cant do this…i dont want to feel like this any more.

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